hey there- its funny this is the first time I've commented on your blog- been reading it for a while, I actually contacted you a few times a long time ago because you inspired me and i really relate to you-but you shot me down so i stopped- i was messing with a lot of small inspired projects and you even inspired me to strass 2 pairs of my own sneakers which was actually really fun- i even did a pair for my mom for christmas and spent over 500$ on crystals alone doing it... i do a lot of late night busy work and this was something i did for myself and never again... but anyways i was kinda turned off by your negative attitude on your site..i guess i like to check back on your blog to see how your thinking changes...i guess i kinda relate to you in ways which is why i enjoy reading your posts. i have a lot of fun and i work so damn hard because i want this life to be the best possible...i act and i am starting up an apparel line with some famous peeps blah blah... even though you sound so horrendously negative sometimes and i get it - i feel like you limit yourself by your attitude and if you just relaxed a bit and had more fun and stayed focused you can have whatever the hell you want, your so damn talented and you create art which i relate with. I just turned 24 and in my brain i feel 16 and look 19 which has advantages when i do business.im also 100percent sagitarious in every which way possible. listen man let me tell you the one thing you have that i wish i had more then anything is freedom. I'm in so deep with my sexuality that it literally controls my life...the only person that knows is my now business partner who i was semi-forced to share with in order to 'keep it real' and as awful as it sounds (and was) it was so freeing and i destroyed all my walls already prior to that moment with emotional despair . i wish that it could already be in the open, and its not and i can't help but feel either everyone knows, ignores, or thinks I'm straight or just asexual (which is absolutely horrifying). But like you i find myself up all night blasting music working my ass off because its so easy for me dive into work and not deal with my life. I've lost every relationship in my life because of it and burned so many bridges with friends. and it sucks because i pride myself in being the most humble, loving , open minded, passionate, and mostly FUN person possible and my hate has come from my inner battle with myself-im so jealous of you because your free to do whatever you want- your gonna come here to los angeles and your gonna get to fall in love and be completely yourself and probably become less bitter on here.
because of what i do i am always going to based here and am waist deep with everyone. i am getting so close and no doubt imagine i will b full-time on a show (was just on some cw stuff) as well as have a very successful apparel line debuting next year - and on top of that i constantly get to go to amazing places, and parties, and concerts, and whatever -but no matter how gorgeous the moment is i have it all alone. i just live this is ridiculous fantasy and having crazy expectations has allowed me to get what i want career wise because i make it happen with nothing to loose but love there is none. I fucking just turned 24 and have never had a boyfriend(typing that is so fucking hard, half of my friends I'm sure know I'm gay BUT NEVER MAKE ME DEAL WITH IT and the others think I'm straight), I've never been kissed ( only on camera twice with a girl for some dumb show), and never had sex (which i want all the time and bottling that up is like a death) and never have actually felt truly free. so joey your not really alone and you should know theres way bigger losers then you and i really hope when you come to this city you find your happiness and it takes you places you've never imagined. remember life is short and it can change overnight regardless of circumstance- i wish i could take my advice but its a lot harder then one would think. people here are really gross so you have to be completely wary of everyones agendas but there are good people they're just the hardest to find. but yeah man- as angry as you are on here for some reason i keep reading up on you- but the fact that your open with your sexuality has already put you in charge- you just have to be your self and love will find you, I'm jealous of you and i hope one day soon i can be free like that because I'm so ready for real love. keep working hard man and lighten up. the world is small and i do not imagine our paths not crossing one way or another. ps i only saw one pic of you but i remember you having really beautiful eyes on some trip with your family- and fyi thats the first compliment I've ever given another guy so there...
hey there-
ReplyDeleteits funny this is the first time I've commented on your blog- been reading it for a while, I actually contacted you a few times a long time ago because you inspired me and i really relate to you-but you shot me down so i stopped- i was messing with a lot of small inspired projects and you even inspired me to strass 2 pairs of my own sneakers which was actually really fun- i even did a pair for my mom for christmas and spent over 500$ on crystals alone doing it... i do a lot of late night busy work and this was something i did for myself and never again... but anyways i was kinda turned off by your negative attitude on your site..i guess i like to check back on your blog to see how your thinking changes...i guess i kinda relate to you in ways which is why i enjoy reading your posts. i have a lot of fun and i work so damn hard because i want this life to be the best possible...i act and i am starting up an apparel line with some famous peeps blah blah... even though you sound so horrendously negative sometimes and i get it - i feel like you limit yourself by your attitude and if you just relaxed a bit and had more fun and stayed focused you can have whatever the hell you want, your so damn talented and you create art which i relate with. I just turned 24 and in my brain i feel 16 and look 19 which has advantages when i do business.im also 100percent sagitarious in every which way possible. listen man let me tell you the one thing you have that i wish i had more then anything is freedom. I'm in so deep with my sexuality that it literally controls my life...the only person that knows is my now business partner who i was semi-forced to share with in order to 'keep it real' and as awful as it sounds (and was) it was so freeing and i destroyed all my walls already prior to that moment with emotional despair . i wish that it could already be in the open, and its not and i can't help but feel either everyone knows, ignores, or thinks I'm straight or just asexual (which is absolutely horrifying). But like you i find myself up all night blasting music working my ass off because its so easy for me dive into work and not deal with my life. I've lost every relationship in my life because of it and burned so many bridges with friends. and it sucks because i pride myself in being the most humble, loving , open minded, passionate, and mostly FUN person possible and my hate has come from my inner battle with myself-im so jealous of you because your free to do whatever you want- your gonna come here to los angeles and your gonna get to fall in love and be completely yourself and probably become less bitter on here.
because of what i do i am always going to based here and am waist deep with everyone. i am getting so close and no doubt imagine i will b full-time on a show (was just on some cw stuff) as well as have a very successful apparel line debuting next year - and on top of that i constantly get to go to amazing places, and parties, and concerts, and whatever -but no matter how gorgeous the moment is i have it all alone. i just live this is ridiculous fantasy and having crazy expectations has allowed me to get what i want career wise because i make it happen with nothing to loose but love there is none. I fucking just turned 24 and have never had a boyfriend(typing that is so fucking hard, half of my friends I'm sure know I'm gay BUT NEVER MAKE ME DEAL WITH IT and the others think I'm straight), I've never been kissed ( only on camera twice with a girl for some dumb show), and never had sex (which i want all the time and bottling that up is like a death) and never have actually felt truly free. so joey your not really alone and you should know theres way bigger losers then you and i really hope when you come to this city you find your happiness and it takes you places you've never imagined. remember life is short and it can change overnight regardless of circumstance- i wish i could take my advice but its a lot harder then one would think. people here are really gross so you have to be completely wary of everyones agendas but there are good people they're just the hardest to find. but yeah man- as angry as you are on here for some reason i keep reading up on you- but the fact that your open with your sexuality has already put you in charge- you just have to be your self and love will find you, I'm jealous of you and i hope one day soon i can be free like that because I'm so ready for real love. keep working hard man and lighten up. the world is small and i do not imagine our paths not crossing one way or another.
ReplyDeleteps i only saw one pic of you but i remember you having really beautiful eyes on some trip with your family- and fyi thats the first compliment I've ever given another guy so there...